mush brain

Wow. I can't believe how fried I am. I was so tired after the drive yesterday that I had a hell of a time even going to sleep, and then I had nightmares half the night. Or rather, I kept having the same nightmare half the night. I don't even remember now what it was, except that it wasn't a something's-chasing-me-and-I'm-going-to-die kind of nightmare; it was just awful and I kept dreaming it over and over. I remember thinking it was because of the song I had stuck in my head, which was "If I Loved You" from Carousel. I used to think it was a sweet song but after hearing it recently all I could think of was how sad it was, and remembering that it was a terribly sad show. I have NO idea why I thought a sad show tune would give me nightmares, but then what's logical about nightmares, anyway?

I swear, if I don't get to feeling alive pretty soon I might re-think making a day-trip tomorrow that's at least 4 hours each way. The company would be wonderful and I know I could sleep if need be, but I'm debating. I need to decide soon, though, because if I don't go, I still want to get the two scrolls I have finished delivered so they'll go.