gloom and despair....

Oh, well, maybe not TOTAL gloom and despair, what with the news from yesterday about the money situation. But, damn... I've registered to take the GRE on Sept 9 in Durham. That's a week and a half away. I am reviewing math (again) and becoming more unhappy by the moment. Yesterday I flat out panicked and every time I looked at anything that had a number in it my brain froze, not to tmention the accelerated beating of my heart. I finally gave up, did some random stuff around the house, took a sleeping pill and went to bed. (Believe me, the sleep she does not come to me without the pill, with this anxiety level.) Woke up much refreshed and got busy. I've worked for several hours so far today and hadn't felt panicky. I just did a section of a math practice test and missed a huge number of questions. Some were simple mis-reading mistakes but most were major examples of not approaching the problem correctly. I'm still not panicky but I'm getting a leaden feeling around my heart.